Doing nowt!

There are times when I sit and I appear to be doing nothing, it may occur to you that I am being lazy or I need someone to talk to or I am upset. I may even have a case of resting bitch face.

I can assure you that although your concern is appreciated it is unnecessary :-) ... Let me explain.

I have wandered off, gone for a little trip in my head. I am resting! 

Why? Because sleep is my safe place, it is the sanctuary, it is blissful nothingness and although physically restful I don't have the time to just be. To let my mind wander, to allow the inside me to stretch its legs. 

There's an awful lot going on in this head of mine, ideas past, present, future, concerns, niggles, wonderings, plans, random questions thrown up by people I meet and places I go. 

So when I find time, I sit, or recline or sometimes just lean and I go for a wander through the highways and byways of my ridiculous head. I am having alone time, I am reordering my thinking, I am plotting and planning or enjoying a trip down memory lane. I like it here and if I didn't find you lot and the world at large so interesting I might stay (this enticing thought is somewhat scary and gives me a tiny insight into those of us with serious mental health issues who tune out of the 'real' and wander off in their head seeming somewhat catatonic to those of us left behind) 

And these mini trips and short breaks act as a time out and revitalise me and my thinking, it allows me time to reorder my brain (as far as I can!) and to feel ready to face whatever the actual world requires of me. 

So please don't worry if I am there but not there, let me know if it would help to stick a 'back in 5 minutes' note to my head. I'll be back! 

TTFN